This should scare you off. Clean time 125 days
F or those of you who hate reading religious posts, then I would avoid this one. It’s all about it.
We’ll my sponsor said I have moved into the second step of the 12 steps. This step is all about believing in a Higher Power. That’s really a no brainer for me because I already do and have for some time. But just because I believe does not mean that there is not something that can be learned from this step. So I have allowed my brain to ramble a bit. This is not the best of ideas because I like taking on the bigger questions of life. So the question I pose and attempt to answer in this blog is… why my Higher Power doesn’t materialize and say Hi. Why is it that no one can see the Face of God. For some people, that would be all they need to believe forever.
To answer this question I pose 3 different people’s perspective of what their Higher Power looks like, if I asked to describe him or her to me.
1) One said that he would look like Charleston Heston in the movies. Long white beard, robes, old, big majestic voice.
2) One said the he is a she. In the movie Dogma, God is played by a perky young woman who is a bit crazy.
3) One said that God has no image. God is more like a beam of light.
Okay, armed with those three images, I then decided for them. God looks like a gigantic turtle that has the impression of downs syndrome and has 4 eyes and a tail. If this was true then what would be the outcome for these 3 people?
My first thought is that some of them would think that this could not be God at all because it does not follow the “created man in God’s own image” from Genesis. Who is to say that this passage is correct in the first place? Ahhh debate #1!
My second thought is how hard would it be for those three people to bow down to this image? The conflict would be great.
My third thought is how hard would be it be to establish a loving relationship with this image? My guess, probably pretty hard.
So in conclusion, I think the reason why God does not appear before us is that I think not everyone would be able to accept the look. What if one person in millions did not accept it? I think the loss still is too high for just one person. So this creates a real problem yet I know my Higher Power already solved it in a real smart way.
See I believe there is life on other planets and I believe it’s all from the one and only God. I think this is a problem on all worlds as well so I think God solved it sending down a few ambassadors to speak for him that would be acceptable to the masses. But the problem still persists with only sending down ONE right? I mean that still has a chance to lose some who don’t like the look of that one ambassador. So I think he chose trillions of ambassadors and every day sends more.
I believe that because we can choose a Higher Power of our choosing that is loving and caring and can free us of our addictions and problems, that WHATEVER we choose for ourselves, God can accept as an ambassador for him or her. Even more fun is the fact that this person can have faults and not be perfect. This person can lie and screw around like everyone else. The difference is that my Higher Power is within this person and at times speaks thru this person. If you have ever been to a NA meeting, you will see that some people speak in such a deep level that they surprise themselves.
Not knowing who this person is frees us to choose and allows us to change to another one at anytime.
This allows us to actively seek our Higher Power at our own pace. It also means our Higher Power is always there for us, in real flesh and blood in an image we can accept and love and understand.
Some of us have lost loved ones. People who died early in life. Some to painful deaths. But what I have heard about dying is that in the final moments, there is a good feeling or peace. I think this is the Higher Power that either resides or once resided in us coming to the surface to rejoin God once more.
So even though you may think you are worthless, there is a great deal of worth to each of us.
Inside us carries the spark of God and each of us can look for that in others.
