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Rick My insanity has a new name. Prediction results one year later.

I'm Rick and I'm an addict.

Back on March 21 of 2009 I did my annual predictions (http://www.reconstructingrick.com/profiles/blogs/2009-predictions-a-little-late). Let's see how accurate I really was....




Ricks 2009 Predictions


1) I see a derailment of a train - passenger one not freight. People will someone blame the govern… Continue

Added by Rick on March 12, 2010 at 11:36am — No Comments

Rick Stuff I learned in the time I have been in NA.

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. This may help or not. I don't know.

1) Stay plugged in. People who do not stay plugged in usually go back out there. This is why it says in the traditions speech about unity service. Figure out how much you need to stay plugged in so that you would feel bad if you lost your connection.

2) Build up my tools – you never know when you need them. The basic text is just a bo… Continue

Added by Rick on February 12, 2010 at 9:30am — No Comments

Pat The Fog

Eyes feel like they weigh 300lbs. I walk in a foggy daze. Brain function minimal. Attempts to converse fail. Walking proves to be difficult, mis-judging and hitting the door, then the floor. The fog thickens now shading the world in grey. Eyes in pain. Sleep seems days away. Ever present insomnia. Did I just say something? I don’t know, I don’t think I did. When I need sleep it never seems to come. Rock back and forth. Twitching at nothing, my freak flag is flying. Ears ringing. What’s next? Can… Continue

Added by Pat on January 25, 2010 at 1:16am — 1 Comment

Pat Ramblings of my mind

Sitting here waiting for my old friend from years away to arrive. This friend exists yet ceases to be. It has not yet been created, and lies dormant within. When it is time to appear I will know. My friend will shock me and hopefully astonish showing me what can happen with effort and pondering. Creation lies with the beholder yet all creation stems from something scene or heard. This is how creation deceives. Never is it original but a warped version of some existence before it. Even to one who… Continue

Added by Pat on January 20, 2010 at 10:36pm — 1 Comment

Rick From my buddy Tim....

Thoughts to ponder: 1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer's history if you die. 2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong. 3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger. 4. There is great need for a sarcasm font. 5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet? 6. Was learning cursive really necessary? 7. Map Quest needs to start their directions on #5. I'm… Continue

Added by Rick on January 6, 2010 at 2:50pm — No Comments

Rick Christmas for an addict. 1 year, 7 months, 25 days clean

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. First I wanted to thank everyone who read this blog and contributed to this site. Sadly I think I am going to take it down the first part of next year. The viewers have dropped and very rarely does someone add to the site. My posting has not been so regular either. No-one comments or shares what they know about addiction. However I do know that Tim and sometimes Jim reads it. After all, I guess it was never suppose to be this gigantic site... just a safe place for ad… Continue

Added by Rick on December 24, 2009 at 11:44am — No Comments

Rick Nothing changed Clean time 1 yr, 7 mo, 2 days

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. Nothing changed mentally with me except two things. My buddy Tim and my buddy Brian showed me how simple it is to make someone feel better. Tim showed me that when someone is really down, just a serious face saying words of support means a lot and my buddy Brian showed me that if you tell someone how grateful you are of them when they are down, that it somehow makes a person who feels worthless have a little value. Continue

Added by Rick on December 1, 2009 at 8:57am — No Comments

Rick Imploding fast. Clean time 1 yr, 7 months, 1 day

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. I haven't felt like this in over 2 years and I have to write about it right now because I want something to note the time and place of my implosion. I am in a real bad place right now mentally. Real bad. All of the pressure of this whole legal issues have finally come to the surface. It's not going well and I am not sure what the outcome will be. I just got a call from one of my attorneys (I have 3 law firms right now) and now I am getting audited once more. That m… Continue

Added by Rick on November 30, 2009 at 12:40pm — No Comments

Rick Happy Thanksgiving from an addict. Clean time 575 days

I'm Rick and I'm and addict Thank you. I am not going to give you all the normal crap you hear around this time of the year. Just the feelings I have right now and let's just see if there really is gratitude. Yesterday some dick tech from AT&T was over at my office because the internet was down. He was an old guy (which I don't trust for tech jobs really) and he was a total jerk. Not your normal jerk mind you... one of those guys who acts like he not only knows it all but doesn't want to h… Continue

Added by Rick on November 25, 2009 at 8:33am — No Comments

Rick Evil walks amoung us. Clean time 566 days.

I'm Rick and I'm an addict What the hell is going on lately? If you ever wondered if evil is real, I have news for you... stop guessing. There are things going on right now that I have never seen before in my life and for those of you who read my blog or have been following along for a while, you know what I have seen a lot in my life. In this past week I have seen more people relapse then I ever have before. These are not people with a few days behind their belt just going out again, these ar… Continue

Added by Rick on November 16, 2009 at 2:15pm — No Comments

Rick I finally am in the zone on my third step. Clean time 1 yr and a half exactly!

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. I think I found the secret of the third step. I have talked it to death and have made logical moves to try and live it but it wasn't until I started finally having a working relationship with my Higher Power did I finally feel better. It wasn't just about turning it over.. it was also trusting and working as a team on my life. Finally, I am not alone. Continue

Added by Rick on October 29, 2009 at 10:10am — No Comments

Rick What old age feels like. Clean time 541 days

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. One of my dear friends is experiencing someone dying in his life. This always brings to mind a series of sad thoughts in my head. I still am crushed to tears about the situation with me losing my dog to my own actions and so much more. The more I think about death and getting older, the more clear it becomes. To me it's very sad that people gain wisdom and make it through life for years and struggle for so long and each day they do it just makes them physically weak… Continue

Added by Rick on October 22, 2009 at 3:08pm — No Comments

Rick Knowing that your different. Clean time 522 days

I'm Rick and I'm and addict. I have always known I was different from other people. It really wasn't a big mystery for me. When I was a kid, for some reason I didn't fit in and felt that there was something wrong with me. Sure I had a lot of stuff going on but at the same time I also knew that something in my head was also not right. For starters, I didn't like the traditional boy stuff like sports. I liked baseball but I was very scared to catch the ball. Swimming was also fun but not competit… Continue

Added by Rick on October 3, 2009 at 12:00pm — No Comments

Rick Seems like everyone is losing it, including me. Clean time 514 days

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. Can't put my finger on it really. Just seems like people are losing it lately. First, my meeting attendance is down. Second, I am not thinking about NA all the time like I used to. Sure, I know it's mostly because of work. Some of my sponsees are not attending usual meetings (probably because the old man here is showing them a bad example). A lot of people relapsing lately. Dont be fooled. I love NA with every fiber in my body. I love my NA brothers. I love the fell… Continue

Added by Rick on September 25, 2009 at 8:46am — No Comments

Terrance 30 days!

I got 30 days clean today, which is good for me. Lately little things have been getting to me and I have had no problem telling people what im thinking, which tends to make me look like an asshole but I realize this after everything is said and done. I am really trying hard to stay clean and do the right thing but it I think im giving into my addicition by being an inconsiderate asshole to people, but whatever I'm in recovery right? anyways im just starting to realize that there is more for me a… Continue

Added by Terrance on September 9, 2009 at 11:04pm — 1 Comment

jpj street drugs to prescriptions all the same

jpj-I have never really been a blog type of person, but after 15 years of drug abuse and confusion i have been made aware of another way to interact and share the part of my life that has left me with overwhelming feelings that I need to learn from and decide for my self that they will never overcome who I really am. I started going to NA meetings this past march and since then have become more comfortable sharing about the harder part of my using which was fueled by lots of doctors and prescrip… Continue

Added by jpj on September 8, 2009 at 5:25pm — 2 Comments

Rick HISTORY OF NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS

HISTORY OF NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS (Transcribed from workshop tape) Hi, I’m Scott and I’m an addict. Hello family, it’s good to be here today. Many of us have the desire to know more about our own roots. That is what has basically guided me to ask a lot of questions, find people out, and talk to them over a period of time to pick-up bits and pieces of the history of Narcotics Anonymous. If there is one thing for sure I’ve been able to figure out is if NA didn’t exist, someone would have to invent… Continue

Added by Rick on September 7, 2009 at 9:48am — No Comments

Fran T raccoon

Sorry,...I was acting like I was on a chat. You can see from my profile pic that I have a big dog. I love this dog! But when I was in active addiction, I was like a lump on a couch with a remote in my hand. Not only did I ignore my friends & other people, I ignored my dog. Now I ask myself, how I could have done that? He's my buddy, companion, best friend, guard. I'm sure he thought the raccoon was too close to the house & a threat to me. He was just sitting by it. It was only when I gra… Continue

Added by Fran T on September 5, 2009 at 10:49pm — No Comments

Fran T Hi Rick!

Good to hear from you! More later. Fran Continue

Added by Fran T on September 5, 2009 at 11:13am — 4 Comments

Rick What it's like to have Sponsees. Clean time 1 yr, 4 mo, and 6 days

I'm Rick and I'm an addict. I guess it would be pretty easy not to care. I have seen this before with other Sponsors. Simply just say you are sponsoring someone and then just see what happens. Then there is the ones which rush a person thru the program only to have the person end up miserable because they didn't get anything out of it other than the book information. I am the type that looks at my Sponsees as my sons. He'll I'm old enough to be their dad so in some weird way there is this menta… Continue

Added by Rick on September 4, 2009 at 9:51am — No Comments

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My insanity has a new name. Prediction results one year later.

Posted by Rick on March 12, 2010 at 11:36am

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Stuff I learned in the time I have been in NA.

Posted by Rick on February 12, 2010 at 9:30am

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The Fog

Posted by Pat on January 25, 2010 at 1:16am — 1 Comment

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Ramblings of my mind

Posted by Pat on January 20, 2010 at 10:36pm — 1 Comment

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From my buddy Tim....

Posted by Rick on January 6, 2010 at 2:50pm

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