My dear son…
I ’m Logan and I’m an addict
This is a letter I received as I moved from my third step to my fourth step…I had/have a hard time trusting God to heal me…I know it sounds crazy to prefer my sick twisted broken life over the whole life God offers, but when it comes down to it, I simply am comfortable with the pain of my addiction, I have had more than twenty-five years adjusting…nevertheless, I will share…hope you see your name and life in these words. Be encouraged my friends, God’s view of us is not what we or anyone else sees, and I am grateful for that…
May 2007
My Dear Son,
I Love You! I Love You! I Love You! You are priceless to me. You make my heart leap for joy. When I think of how you hurt, I hurt. You are so special and fragile. It hurts to watch you suffer, but you must pass through this into the real life I have for you! Your heart has so much to give; I gave you this burden, this word of freedom, this fierce heart of love. You were made for me to show the world my true self. I trust you! You can tell them of me. You will be a great warrior! You ARE a great warrior.
Trust me, I know the true you! The you, you crave, the thirst in your soul is me, I am waiting there, longing for you to come to me…it is there you receive me, and what I have for you.
Let me have my way, embrace me now, allow my healing to transform you!
You see all you failures, I see all your strength.
I see the heart of love is fierce enough to tell the truth!
I see the desire to see men go free.
You see a little boy afraid…I see a child-like faith that trusts and depends only on me.
You see an inadequate boy…I see the strength of the God of the universe, in your inadequacy.
You are scared of what you will give up or lose…I see the inheritance that yours as my son.
You see the world against you…I see the world at your feet, as my son.
You see your tasks, and they are huge…I see your ability to climb…you don’t know you can…I know…I will climb for and with you.
You see others disapproval…I see my seal on you.
You see disgusting self-righteousness…I see the righteousness of my Son, Jesus when I look at you.
You see the inability to acquire by this world’s standards…I see the resources of the King at your disposal.
You see the end…I see the beginning.
You see the unlovable you…I see the priceless you…I value you…value what you don’t…value all that you are…shortcomings and gifts alike…I see the whole you…not the parts of you that blind you.
You see the scraps you have to offer…I see the source of your abundance.
You see your problems…I see me…your solution.
You see the obstacles to stop you…I see the path to free you.
You fear the unknown…I AM the unknown.
You are afraid you can’t…I know you can’t…but I can.
You see the woman as your ultimate accomplishment…I see the woman as your partner…to be cherished…not to be conquered.
You see her approval as a seal on you as a man…I see you as the man to be her strength.
You see the pain…I see the joy.
You see her as the prize…I see you as her prize.
You see her as your guide…I see you as her guide to me.
You feel the agony of letting go…I felt the agony of holding on.
You see the gamble of trusting me…I see the pay off of letting me have my way.
You see the darkness…I see the light…I am your light.
You see your pain…I feel your pain
You see what you can’t do…I see what I can do.
You see everything but me…I see only you as you were meant to be!
I am your Father…you are my son…Logan, you are PRICELESS!!!
…with all my heart…
GOD
