You know, it occurred to me that we are really a violent bunch of assholes. I was thinking again about the Face of God post I did and I realized that people kill each other and go to war over what they believe God should be. I actually wondered that maybe it WOULD be best to have God show up face to face and clear it all up so that more and more people stop killing each other over it.
Then I thought again about the fact that the decision is already been made. God did show himself… at least in what I believe. He sends ambassadors to earth all the time and we only end up killing them because they scare us or tell us to grow up as people.
Even with that being said, I think we have such incredible gifts to offer each other once we stop with what makes us different and look at what makes us the same. Yah, I learned that at NA but only recently do I understand it more.
I have to tell you people that are using drugs… trust me on this one from one majorly messed up piece of shit like me…. NA is the bomb. The more and more you work on the steps and the more you do service and just get over your hang-ups the better your life is. I just started making decisions and acting on them and let me tell you, that’s a major thing for me. I am starting to address my demons and I have NA to thank for that.
Last thing… I have really decided that drinking is also something I don’t want anymore (and I have not had a drink in MONTHS (last was when I was using). I went to my sisters birthday dinner and she had a few. I got to see firsthand from being sober what it looks like to be drunk. Wow. I’m done with that.
I am not free of my addictions… but I am getting there and if you really want to get out of the hell you know… then just go to NA. This has been a public service announcement on behalf of NA. My name is Rick and I endorse this message. I’m an idiot.
