Hey guys… I’m Rick and I’m an addict.
The company I work for is folding. Everyone is under stress. Accounts are dropping. I got short changed on my check by about $1100 after trusting them to pay me yesterday. They said they will pay me the balance tomorrow. I don’t think they can.
Thoughts of using come up more lately. I put Accent (the salt substitute) on my food the other day and it looked like Meth and then I actually starting thinking about using. Accent looks like Meth a lot.
My family is pissed I am not speading more time looking for a job. They are about to cut me off.
My sister, whom always supported me, won’t let me stay in her home for a week to watch their dog while they are out of town. I think it’s because they think I will use and steal from them.
My left eye has been red and painful for the last week. I have not gone to a doctor. I worry I will lose my sight in that eye if I don’t. I am starting to wonder if a person with one eye can legally drive. Insanity is starting again.
With all this being said, I am very happy inside. I have not used. I have a new friend in Frank (some people have called him Fred but he is Frank) and I am encouraged that he is there. I am trusting my Higher Power to take care of me. My fellow addicts Tim and Todd have called me. I love these guys so much. They are closer to me than my normal family. As far as I am concerned, I am blessed.
November 6th, 2008 at 11:22 am
Oh that sucks Rick. Toss the Accent out the window if it reminds you and makes you want to use. Salt itself is far better for you than that! I’m sorry to hear your family is not being more supportive. Maybe give them a little break for being kind of overwhelmed themselves with all the economic chaos and everything? And yes, a person with one eye can legally drive, but keep the eye anyway. Get to a doc if at all possible, eh? I hope things look up. It’s great to hear you’re feeling good about yourself in spite of all of it. You go, Rick!
November 7th, 2008 at 3:54 pm
so you’re learning the lesson that probably got you into drug use the first time.
Sometimes you just have to refuse those types of lessons. Don’t let reality beat you into submission.
In other words, If the world sucks make it suck your dick.
November 8th, 2008 at 8:43 pm
hi im jeff and im a coke addict im just coming off a relapse (3 weeks) and i feel like shit what the fuck how many times does it take before i fucking learn sometimes i think that ill never get over over that euphoria that coke gives me is it all worth it in the end…. no
November 9th, 2008 at 2:33 pm
Hey guys. First, love the plain talk. For some reason my brain gets that better then lofty speak. Also, I appreciate the support as well. I am going to post my thoughts right now because you guys have me thinking.