Just heard something by a fellow member the other day I thought I would share. I found it to be actually so simple in the way it was said that I thought someone else might like to hear it.

The 6th step is about defects of character and the 7th is about shortcomings. Defects is the underlying root issue and shortcomings is the execution of the defect. Example… say someone has dishonesty as a defect. The opening ones mouth and lying is the shortcoming.

Let’s use another one. Lets say that impatience followed with anger is a shortcoming. The yelling at people to hurry up all the time would be the shortcoming.

To me that is so simple to understand and yet it took almost 4 years to hear it.

That only goes to show you that if you go to enough meetings and you LISTEN you might actually hear something new.

So now this opened a can of worms. Now I am looking at my shortcomings more and more and trying to figure out my defect of character which I already worked my 6th and 7th step! Kind of like I missed it in the searching. Of course, I am not too far away as I am on my eight step (which I am planning on working after this post). It’s just that I now have more defects then I thought and maybe I need to revisit this again… but if I don’t keep moving forward then I will never get through my 8th.

I think the truth is, I may try and just rush the steps now which this means I may miss so much. I can’t do that. I am willing to learn and I am unafraid of what I find so I guess it’s not a game of who finishes the steps before each other… it’s how I live them and how aware of the messages in my daily life.

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So I was thinking the other day about the fellowship and the 3rd tradition and the message got real clear to me. Recovery is a LOT like wanting to go to the moon. Follow along…

So if I decided I had this desire… this burning desire to go to the moon and the was no NASA or anything. I would probably be like a kid and think about what I would need. A rocket for sure. Probably would not trust myself to be a passenger but maybe a rocket of some sort. I would do the best I could but I know in my best day, the rocket would probably not get real far. Surely it would not break the clouds let alone the atmosphere.

First thing I would do is see if anyone else wanted to do this too. We would meet, talk, and go over the plans I had and the ones he had and see if we could get higher the the clouds. Probably not get much higher but who knows. Having this one more person to check my plans and thoughts and mine to check his would be pretty important. Still we would get tired if all there was is just the two of us because we would not get too far and I would lose hope.

We would probably put our heads together and see if there was anyone out there with the same interests we had and try and connect. Building our resources. Learning what works and what doesn’t. Each person who shares we would grow a little smarter and gain more techniques. Soon, we may actually get something above the clouds…maybe high enough to see the edge of this planet. But still we need to go higher.. farther and faster.

So we would probably go to the smartest people we know who ALSO has this interest and get them involved. Our little collective would grow to hundreds of people. Each one of us with a little different experience and a little different perspective. Some people on the group would have been at this for years and they had tried and failed and then succeeded to the point where they probably looks at use with a little grin. To us.. rockets made out of steel and fuel made out of explosives just makes sense. To them… we are sure to die from the shrapnel of the explosion.

Soon, the more we went to our little education meetings and the more we listened to others and shared what we learned, we would start doing the right things and the excitement would build. When someone new would come to the meeting we would be excited because here was someone with a new brain. We could share all we learned with much zeal and they could tell us what they learned to this point and maybe we could pick up something we missed. Together with each new day, with each new person and because we kept coming back to our meetings we would no longer be alone with our desire to go to the moon – it was becoming a reality… it was becoming a fact.

Do you know that exciting new products got launched by the space program? Bet you think it’s just a few right?

Try this…

360 Degree Camera, 3-D Synthetic Vision Flight Displays, Advanced Hydrogen Sensors, Advanced Lubricants, Advanced Welding Torch, Aerodynamic Bicycle Wheels, Air Catalysts for Carbon Monoxide Poisoning, Aircraft Collision Avoidance, Aircraft Design Analysis, Airline Wheelchairs, Airliner TV Transmission Via Satellite, AiroCide TiO2 Air Purifier, Anthrax Smoke Detector, Arteriosclerosis Detection, Artificial Heart, Astronaut Plant Bag, Athletic Shoes, Audiometric System for Hearing Assessment, Automated Urinalysis, Automatic Insulin Pump, Automotive Design, Automotive Insulation,
BAFCO Linear Actuators, Balance Evaluation System, Biomass Production System for Education, Bioreactor Demonstration System, Bioreactor Human Tissue Growth, Bone Analyzer, Breast Biopsy, Breast Cancer Screening, Bridge Safety Improvements, Cabin Pressure Altitude Monitor and Warning System, Camera on a Chip, Cardiac Pacemaker, Cataract Surgery Tools, Chemical Warfare Hood, Chromosome Analysis, Clean Room Apparel, Clean Water for Homes, Coastal Zone Color Scanner, Compact Blood Diagnostic Equipment, Compact Fire and Rescue Extraction Devices, Composite Forceps, Composite Materials Development – Golf Clubs, Computer Joysticks, Computer-Aided Tomography (CAT Scanner), Computer Reader for the Blind, Convection Oven, Cool Vest Therapeutic Suits, Cordless Power Tools and Appliances, Corporate Jet Wing Designs, Corrosion Protection Coating, Crop Dusting Improvements, Crop Growing Improvements, DeBakey Heart Pump, Dental Arch Wire, Digital Mammography, Diving Optical Profiler, DMI Remote Sensing Fish-Finding Service, Doppler Radar, Ear Thermometer, Edible Toothpaste, Electric Car, Emission Testing, Emulsified Zero-Valent Iron Remediation, Energy Storage Systems, Engine Coatings, Engine Design, Engine Lubricant, Failsafe Flashlight, Fetal Heart Monitor, Fire Detection Systems, Firefighter Breathing System, Firefighter Radios, Firefighting Equipment, Fireman’s Air Tanks, Fitness Equipment, Flame Detector, Foam-In-Place Seating Technology, Freeze Drying Technologies, Gas Detector, Gasoline Vapor Recovery, Geosynchronous Orbiting, Golf Ball Aerodynamics, GPS Navigation, Helmet Padding, High Temperature Soldering Blocks, High-Pressure Waterstripping, Historical Document Condition Analysis, Home Insulation, Human Tissue Stimulator, Implantable Heart Aid, Improved Aircraft Engines, Inertial Motion-Tracking for Virtual Reality, Infrared Camera, Infrared Thermometer, Insulation, Insulin Pumps, Interactive Computer Training, InTime Agricultural Remote Sensing, Invisible Braces, Kidney Dialysis, Land Mine Removal Device, Laser Angioplasty, Laser Heart Surgery, Laser Wire Stripper, Lead Poison Detection, Lifeshears – Emergency Rescue Cutters, Lightning Protection, Low Vision Enhancement System (LVES), Lubricant Coating Process, Machine Tool Software, Magnetic Bearing System, Magnetic Liquids, Magnetic Resonance Imaging, Medical Gas Analyzer, Methane-Powered Vehicles, Microelectromechanical Systems, Microlasers, Miniature Accelerometers, Modified Carbon Nanotube Materials, Ocean Fluorometer, Ocular Screening, Oil Spill Control, PackBot Tactical Mobile Robot, Palate Surgery Technology, Personal Storm Warning System, Pesticide-Free Mosquito Killing System, Phenotype MicroArray, Photodynamic Therapy, Physical Therapy, Pill Sized Transmitter, Plantronics Wireless Communications Devices, Portable X-Ray Device, Precision Lightning Strike Location System, Programmable Pacemaker, PRO-SAN Non-Toxic Microbicidal Santizer, Prosthesis Material, Protective Clothing, PureSense Water and Air Purification Systems, Quartz Clock, Radiant Barrier Technology, Radiation Hazard Detector, Real-Time Emergency Action Coordination Tool, Remote Controlled Light Switch, Remote Command and Control Appliances, Ribbed Swimsuit, Robotic Arms, Robotic Hands, Satellite Computer Data Transmission, Satellite Computer Image Transmission, Satellite Crop Growth & Monitoring, Satellite Fishing Technology, Satellite Stabilization, Satellite Telephone Signal Transmission, Satellite TV Transmission, School Bus Improvements, Secure Mobile Router System, Self-Locking Fasteners, Self-Righting Life Raft, Ski Boots, Skin Care Product Effectiveness Technology, Smoke Detector Improvements, Smoke Penetrating Forest Fire Analysis, Solar Power Technologies, Solid State High-Power Transmitters, Space Pens, SpiraFlex Resistance Exercise Device, Stadium Roofing Fabric, Standing Wave Reflectometer Wire Analyzer, Studless Winter Tires, Sunglasses Blocking Harmful Rays, Surgical Brain Tumor Probe, Temper Foam Technology, Temperature Pill, Thermal Gloves and Boots, Thermal Protection Insulation, Three-dimensional Thermal Tomography in Radiation Oncology, Tire Deflating Devices – MagnumSpike, Tollbooth Air Purification, Ultrasound Scanners, Ultrasound Skin Damage Assesment, VEGGIE – Deployable Vegetable System, Vehicle Brake Improvements, Vehicle Tracking, Velcro, Video Stabilization, Virtual Reality, Vision Screening System, Voice Controlled Wheelchair, Warfighter Accelerated Recovery, Waste Heat Energy Conversion, Waste Water Purification, Water Purification, Weight Saving Composite Materials, Welding Sensor System, Whale Tracking Technologies, Windshear Prediction, WindTracer for Tracking Aircraft Wake Vortices, Wireless Communications AND ZipNuts

So along the way when someone says that meetings are a waste of time… then I question… do they have the desire to be in the group – because it’s not automatic you know just because they show up. They also have to decide… is this the thing for me because maybe they dont really want to do it. Also if you desire it, how BAD do you desire it. It you are like me, you don’t want to JUST go to the moon… you want to explore the other planets as well and hey, maybe pick up some things along the way that can help me in OTHER areas of my life. NASA did it. We’ll then again, they are rocket scientists and I’m just a kid sitting on the floor playing with my toy spaceships.

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It has been a while since I actually shared on here so I thought I would do so now because it is important to get stuff out.

I am always amazed at how my High Power works in my life. What amazes me is the trick that he always knows what I need ahead of time even if I don’t see it.

Right now my business is going through a horrible slump. This slump is causing me some financial hardship and I want to so badly succumb to my fears. All the typical fears comes to the surface when things like this happens. I worry that my business will fail, that I won’t have money to pay people or continue what I am doing, and that I will have a massive problem with so many things. Even with this being the case, I am trying my best to live in the moment and let me Higher Power do what he does best… take care of me.

Now that sounds like I am not taking action but in fact I am. I am actively doing everything I can to lower expenses and raise capital. Each time I try it looks like I am hitting walls. Getting the message out that as a company we need to bear down on what makes us a success. Yet still I have moments when I feel stressed and worried. Moments later I realize that there has never been a time in my life that I have not been taken care of even when all seemed the darkest.

I was recently diagnosed with Diabetes. This has caused me to feel an abnormal pressure on top of all of it and if I stress myself out I feel light headed and my blood sugar drops. So I feel so powerlessness over my body and lacking of control of my company.

So many times I have to turn my troubles over to my HP and know that it will be alright. Living the 3rd step means that I know that no matter what storms come my way, it will be okay and I will be cared for. It means to listen to my HP and when I get direction to take it. It’s like a GPS system for your life. Without it, I would be lost and afraid.

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So it’s Thanksgiving Day tomorrow and there is so much to be thankful for. Most of the time I do not show my gratitude for anything so maybe I need to fix that. Here is what I am grateful for this year:

1) I’m clean. Yah that’s kind of boring but still.

2) I tackled some of my biggest fears with courage.

3) The business I founded is taking off fast.

4) Ham.

5) Remote controlled cars

6) That I am not dead

7) That I got a better understanding of death now and I’m not so afraid of it.

Family Guy.

9) The program and the people in it.

10) Deviled eggs

11) Iphones

12) Not having to make another car payment

13) Much better porn this year.

14) Everyone who gave me a hug that FELT like a hug, not one of those freaking “handshake hugs”

15) My new office

16) Getting past massive problems and conflicts with people I care about and ending up STILL loving them.

17) Puppies.

18) Finally having the balls to say to peoples faces what I used to say behind their backs.

19) Play-Doh. Man I love that smell.

20) My pain being lessened and my joy increasing.

21) Working the steps and actually making progress on them.

22) Finally addressing my IRS issues after all these years and knowing that no matter what all will be okay because of working step 3

23) Making amends

24) Being able to sit in an airplane seat

25) Having incredible sponsees who really make me happy

26) Having a more open mind.

27) Reconnecting with my buddy Gary and reconstructing our friendship. Damn I love that dude. He is my best friend of all time.

28) Having friends such as the people in my life locally that are very special to me.

29) Sad songs (because they make me cry and when they do I feel cleansed)

30) Neurontin. Because if it wasn’t for this drug I would be in agony 24/7

There is so much more I am grateful for… so this list is not exact but I think as long as I am grateful and recognize this as part of my personality I will actually find more things naturally. The benefit of gratitude is appreciation and recognition of my own existence and my place in this world by concious acknowledgement of what makes me human and promotes life and joy. Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

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So the other day I told my sponsor that I started drinking on occasion.  He thinks I am insane… which I might be.  He told me that I’m not in the program and that if I come back I should find another sponsor.  That he didn’t do me right.  I don’t think I can swallow that, I didn’t do myself right.  My actions are not related to his words.  Now I will say that under the influence I did some things that I’m not proud of, but at the same time they weren’t disastrous to my life… Okay very close especially if I took it a few steps further, but I stepped back.  I also did a little sneaking around not to get drunk, but more to vent about some shit that was really pissing me off.  One thing lead to another and we ended up getting a little over our heads.  Twice this happened but on separate occasions.  I tried to explain my actions to one of the people I had harmed but it didn’t go over very well.  Then I think at the same time people do crazy shit all the time when they are clean so did this happen because of a few beers?  Did my spiritual principles go out the window?  Alas now I am sitting here debating on how these few drinks have affected these past few months.  I have more confidence; I am willing to stand up for what is clearly right.  I know that I have more abilities than am given credit for and am more than ready to fight for it. But at the same time I look at what I lost.  I have no sponsor, that one person I thought friendship would last with.  He said the relationship wouldn’t change, but it clearly has.  It’s obvious to me.  I also feel alone, well I felt alone in the program, but now even more so.  I have no one to vent to… no one to share my thoughts with.  I try to talk to him and more often than not I get this vibe of negativity.   So was it all about the program?  I knew I harmed him in more than one way but apologies were made or attempted.  I don’t really miss the program but I do miss my friend.  Maybe it will just take time or maybe it’s over…

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today has been the hardest day for me to stay sober since i got sober almost 16 months ago. today it took everything in me and everything outside of me to keep me from saying fuck it. today i wanted to run away and never look back. today i almost didnt care. today it almost didnt matter that im looking at ten years of prison if i fuck this up. today was almost the day i lost it. my back hurts worse than it has ever hurt. i have scoliosis and blah blah blah and legit issues ok but last night it felt like i was having fuck back labor. if i didnt know any better id think i was about to pop out the fourth in my litter. i cried walkin thru the hallway and no one has any sympathy for someone whose fucked up as much as i have. for someone whos drug of choice was pain pills, any complaint of pain is just dope seeking behavior…so, i cried and i tried to sleep and i kept waking up and all i knew to do was pray. over this last week the whole mustard seed thing has been brought to me from several different people, in different ways, and its been stuck in my head. so i prayed…. god and i spent alot of prison religion time together but i often forget Him during my daily routine .so id wake up and id just pray. because i had work today and i didnt know how i was gonna make it. so i held onto that damn mustard seed and this morning, i could move a little better. ok so u dont need 8 pages of my complaints…but i had many many things to do today…so i went to see my counselor for a monthly one on one thing and i got there a little early so i went in to the front desk lady, whom i love, and i asked her to pray with me and she held me and prayed and i cried and i left and every fucking step hurt and i just kept thanking god that i could walk. i went to my dumbass one on one thats really not so dumbass but today everything is dumbass, and then im hobblin the 4 or 5 blocks to the transit center cuz i gotta catch the bus to work, in that neighborhood white girls with big asses are a hot commodity so i had 4 guys pull over offerin to give my gimpy ass a ride. mmhmmm a ride. hey guys, just cuz a chick is hobblin down the street she is not a crackhead prostitute. so anyways i call my sponsor and im tellin her that im ready to say fuck it. that one pain pill would make this all go away! and shes tellin me im an idiot and she loves me. and sometimes thats what a girl needs to hear. and i call my stephie d and im tellin her the same things and shes tellin me shell kick my ass, and im tellin her about the guys who are trying to pick me up from the bus stop. and theyre offering me drugs…and i just keep calling people because thats what they tell me to do, and i dont fucking get high. but i still want to. so ive got a couple hours to kill before work and i decide to go to a damn meeting because its somewhere to fucking be and thats what they tell me to do. and i dont get high. and i love that shitty ass place and that stinkin dog and those fuckin weirdos, i really do, because i belong there, and i still feel i belong nowhere…and i still want what they have. so then theres lunch with anthony which was in his own words “the worst part of his day” even though i didnt do anything but not respond to a text message quickly enough because i turn my phone off during the meeting. so my response was “whatever” because i dont have it in me to fight today…and then… then i really really want to get high….so work. my stupid fucking job that im so determined to keep and i dont even really know why im so determined to keep. its so fucking dirty and so fucking strenous and so fucking hard, and yes i love my damn dogs there and yes my boss is pretty cool most of the time but why am i killing myself to keep this fucking job. you cant not not be able to walk and do what i do. you have to bend and i use to go out of my way to not bend… SO why cant i just walk out. why cant i just fucking call in. since when do i give a shit about stuff like this. this is too hard some days. i dont have to keep this job, and yet i cant quit. i need to prove to myself that im a normal girl and i can hold a job and i can get thru it. so i work, and lo and behold theres some doggie pain medicine hanging out that i have stolen a few times from vet clinics…just sitting there. and i cry. and i thank god that i dont have to fucking take it. and i want to so bad, and no one would know and its right there a whole bottle. and i cry some more and i take wolfie outside and i throw the stupid ball and i clean the stupid rooms and i keep walking past the stupid bottle and i am scared to touch it…i put a fucking feeding bowl over it and i thank god again. and im picturing a dumbass mustard seed and im wondering what the fuck does it grow into, and im coming up with inventive ways to clean cages that require less movement… and im wearing a stupid icy hot patch and i just make myself keep moving…and every step is like a fucking mile and i dont want to do it anymore. and i drink some stupid coffee and i take some stupid excedrin and i dont get high. and i get off work 87 hours later, and anthony is driving me home and every bump in the road is like a fucking stab to my sciatic nerve and im crying my eyes out and hes chooses to ignore me. and save your fuck anthony comments cuz had he done to me all that ive done to him, i wouldnt even know his name anymore, but still fuck im crying and i had had plans to go to the movies with my cousin tonight…and they fell thru, and i gotta tell you, that addict brain in me was saying well you could pretend thats where you were going, anthony doesnt know it fell thru, and you got paid yesterday jenn, just go get a few you have to work the next two days, just buy 3, 4, ok 6 and then youll get thru it, and im fucking crying some more and still hes ignoring me and i just want to be held. ok so i just want to be held by a loracet more than anything, and the fact that he can be so cold is fucking with my brain too and the devil is telling me to go for it…so i start texting people. cuz i need to talk but i cant talk cuz im crying. and i talk to my sister brookie whose been babysitting my badass little kids for 2 days, and i dont fucking get high. and i dont pretend to go to the movies and i dont call those numbers that are burned into my brain. i get in the tub and i cry some more. and i turn the water so hot it almost hurts, and now now im on the couch writing about all this dumbass shit because they say talking about shit honestly takes the stupid power out of it and brookie put my stupid icyhot patches on, and i took some more stupid excedrin and im holding on to those dumbass mustard seeds because theyre all i got. and i didnt get high today. but i want to.

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So I sat down and did a little stream of consciousness and this is what I came with…  Am i still sick?  Well I’ll let you be the judge of that.

Those trips

Those dips

The smoke

The toke

I miss your prick

I miss your nod

Feeling like God

And I miss you …

Years since I’ve been away

No longer shall we be astray

To return to those loving days

When I lived in your murky glaze

The haze shall return

As I’m feeling burned

Because I miss the smell

Of that spoon you churned

That distinct taste

When through my arms you raced

Into my head

As those fears I shed

My life was in its place

Everything was in its right place…

Did you relapse yet?  Don’t know if this is appropriate to post here but I figured I would give it a shot.  This is from the mind of a recovering addict with a few years under the belt.  Just another reason why they tell you to keep coming back!

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Hold cow! Things are crazy right now for me. Most of the stuff I can share here but I have to tell you it has been rapid fire problems. Not small ones either. I’ll give you an example… but not all of it.

So I got sued not to long ago for $50,000 from an ad I signed for at a company I used to work for. I signed on behalf of the company and at the time it seemed like a good idea. We’ll I left and they didn’t pay and so guess what… they came after me. I refused to pay it! They then sued me. I went to court to see if they can force me to pay for it and sure enough, they can. That alone cost $4500 and we are not even at the end of that story! So the lawyer (mine) wanted $2500 to try and settle it and if we couldn’t, then he would charge another $2500 to go to court to defend it. OMG.

Anyway (and I hope you are following me on this), we went back and forth at finally agreed that I would pay $20000. $2000 up front and $500 a month till it is paid. I figured I was being raped but I wanted this over and if they got the full $50K it would kill me.

So the DAY this is all over… the DAY… I get a call from my old tax lawyer. It turns out that IRS is auditing me for the last 6 years. Yes, my drugs years is part of that and of course, that is going to be a horror story all by itself. So I had to hire a lawyer, a CPA firm and the tax lawyer to deal with this and in the end, that alone will cost thousands of dollars.

In the meantime, I took on 2 new sponsees recently and I can tell you, independent of me, all of them are having a hard time. ALSO my sister is fighting with my other sister over control and appreciation and they want me to take a side and pounce on the other one. It’s ugly. In the meantime, my foot issue went from good to very bad and I am in very bad pain all the time. This happen to start when all the pressure of this other stuff happening so I think there is a connection.

Then, to put the freaking cherry on top, I am dealing with the “mother of all issues” in my company. I cannot disclose it but suffice to say the problem all by itself is enough to make me want to use but not just use.. kill people in the process. I am not going to lose my company but I think the problem is so bad that I may not be able to fix this and people will lose their jobs over this. At the same time, people are climbing in from everywhere right now asking me for a job.

I feel sick. I am weak. The meds are making me feel funny. Not high, but weird. I feel a little out of control. I need to sleep. I feel like I am in another planet.Everything is looking a little bleak right now. Worries are coming up but not fear as much.  I am a little confused right now, like I have been spun around real fast a lot and then let go.Normally I do not think I would have gotten through any of this right now and still stayed alert and mostly positive.

But here is the real weird part. I am still okay. I have never ever had so many bad things come down on me at one time but I am okay. What is happening to me. I am accepting what is happening. I am living in the moment. When things seem more than what I can handle I am asking for help. I am turning to experts. I am doing what they are saying. I am forgiving people when I should be shooting them dead. Something weird is going on with me. I wonder if this is what they call recovery. True recovery. The type where you live it privately and don’t preach about it. I am on another planet and I don’t know the name of this one.

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We’ll I better take this test because I need someone else to tell me I have some sort of problem so I can feel not responsible for all the crap I have done in my life. I am hoping to have someone explain away my past. How awesome is that? So here is the test… hope you score as well as I did!

1) Have you ever been accused of making sense? [Y] [N]

2) If you have a pet, does it have a weird name? [Y] [N]

3) Have you named one of your kids a weird name like Moonglow or Boing? [Y] [N]

4) Have you been high at work more than 10 times and do you recall those times with a smile? [Y] [N]

5) Is “snow” cold? [Y] [N]

6) Is “ice” cold?? [Y] [N]

7) Is “skiing” an event you do outside in the snow? [Y] [N]

8.) Does sex require being high in any way? [Y] [N]

9) Has someone said to you to try something that you had no clue what it was and you did it anyway? [Y] [N]

10) Where the best friends in your life the ones which you were most ashamed to introduce to your parents? [Y] [N]

11) Did you ever have to stop and ponder if you were too high for a hot tub? [Y] [N]

12) Did you ever use to make driving more fun? [Y] [N]

13) Have you ever pawned anything to make ends meet and by ends I mean food, rent and drugs but the drugs was required so that could not go but you would think maybe the food and rent could but you pawned anyway? [Y] [N]

14) Did #13 above make sense to you? [Y] [N]

15) Have you ever said this in anger to anyone.. “I was NOT sleeping” ? [Y] [N]

16) Can you think of at least 3 places you can hide drugs and never be seen? [Y] [N]

17) Is one of the ones from above a place right in front of those idiots noses? [Y] [N]

18) Have you ever felt  you were being watched by your neighbor to the point were you had to cover your windows all the time? [Y] [N]

19) If CSI crime labs combed your car right now, would you be worried? [Y] [N]

20) Do you know the price of pot?? [Y] [N]

Okay so I failed all those but I figure if you actually read them then you already know and just want someone to say you are as well. Got yah.

Anyone else have some good ones that was missing from this list? Post them in comments. Can’t wait to see what you say…

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Maybe you have heard this and maybe you are just a little tired of it too:

I’m Joe and I’m a filthy junkie and wino.

I have been coming to meetings for 3 weeks and I’m on my 7th step

I love NA. This program is awesome and is the best thing that every happened to me. It’s awesome I’m telling you. So incredible it changed my life, my friends life, my dogs life and my pet rocks life. Awesome awesome awesome. I think I may explode.

When I leave the rehab I know I will go back out and use.

All you need is God. I found Jesus and when that happened my life turned around and if it wasn’t for this program I wouldn’t find Jesus.

I have 12 years clean! (… and this is the first time you have ever seen this person)

Let me tell you how to work this step…

God grant me the courage to change my serenity, the wisdom to do the things I can and the acceptance to know the difference.

Just for today I will try to get a better spectrum on my life

Smoking Pot is not using so I still have my clean time.

… anonmimity or anomomity or anonomousity… or anomity

Does any of this sound familiar?

Now some people who have been around the rooms feel newcomers should sit down and shut up and listen. Others feel that newcomers, being the most important person at any meeting, should talk away.

I personally feel that new comers should share and say anything, no matter how crazy, at any time, to anyone for any reason. At the same time, it takes a lot of patience to listen to that stuff. When I first started coming around I am sure I sounded like an idiot and I can tell you right now, I STILL sound like an idiot.

The problem as I see it is that the newcomers are mixed with the “almost new comers” and those people are dangerous. New comers are usually just scared. Almost new comers are usually a bit pompous. “Been around a few days” addicts are now messed up but in a whole new way. “Dinosaur” addicts are usually very sweet people but you never see them much.

So you have to go from scared to crazy before you get to serene. Got it.

Oh yah… can anyone tell me whats WRONG with the lines new comers use? Grab a line above and tell me what’s wrong. Unless you are a new comer and then “everything is as it should be”

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